小妮子小日記

Hi, i know you must think that it's akward to read this...
but, during the last week, i experienced a lot of things...

everyday we painted a lot of paintings,
and every painting required us to dig deep down in ourselves,
to understand how we feel things,
to realize how have we come this far,
to settle those haunted past...

one night, i dreamt about you,
you were telling me about the other girl that you like so much,
but suddenly, you turned to me and gave me a kiss...

usually, i don't "research" my dreams,
because i think its' interpretation are varied and different.
however, this dream reflect my sub-consiousness clearly.

i have always known that you like her...and still does...
although i don't know her, and she doesn't know me either...
for nineteen months, i have struggled with my feelings for you...
there were some happy moments, but still,
there were a lot of heartbreaking moments...

this is a feeling that is not allowed to be told,
especially when given such circumstances.
and that's why i write in english,
it seems that if this could lighten the true meaning behind all these words...

by writing this, i think...it's an alternative salvation,
which will be a relief...any how...

all right, this series of diary will have part IV...XD